Wednesday, May 18, 2011

May 18,2011

I haven't writtten much bucause there has been little to write about.  I am doing well and I am just waiting for the June 10th, scan to see what we do next.  While I wait, I am feeling good enough to resume normal activity and am feeling better each day.  I still have a little burn in my swollowing and my back is still itching like a sun burn.  My feet still have some numbness from the chemo. I don't know if that will ever go away. My hair is not back yet so I have a ways to go.
Please don't stop praying as I need it now as much as ever.  God bless you and your house.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

May 11, 2011

I have been thinking about how all my friends and family have been so supportive through all this battle.  I guess there will never be a way to repay any of you but I sure wish there were. It has been an eye( and heart), opener for me. 
I guess until you are in this situation you never stop to think about needing help from friends.  We all assume that we can pretty much handle all that life throws at us.  Then it throws a curve like you have never seen or expected.  It is then you realize that, as John Prine said, " everybody needs sombody that they can talk to"and as  Bob Dylan says " you got to serve sombody; It might be the Devil or it might be the Lord, but you got to serve sombody. Well, I found out both statements are true.
I am trying to say,badly, that we cannot complete this life alone, without help.  We need our friends, family and, most of all, God.  I am talking about the God of Abraham.  I had no idea how much I needed God until this cancer battle.  He does what he says he will do and He made me able to stand all the poison they put into me without much problem.  I was blessed to never get sick through all of this.  I had my battles but the Hawk was always there.  It may have been through a friend stopping by at the right moment, a check arriving in the mail on the right day, a card in the mail from someone giving me encourgement or someone praying for me but when I was down.  He was always there.  I do not ever want to forget that.  All you friends out there: don't ever let me forget it.  If I ever get to acting like I was the one who brought myself through this, smack me up side the head and remind me what I have said here today.

I am having good days now.  I don't know if the battle is over.  I won't know that until the 10th of June when they do my other scan but I do know that, so far, I have been doing good through all of this because of all of you folks out there who have prayed and encourged me through it all. I really thank all of you friends, family and church, for your support.  God bless you and your house

Monday, May 9, 2011

May 9, 2011

It is nice here this morning; clear with a tempeture of 60.  I was able to sleep in two hour blocks last night which is better than I have been doing.  My heart rate is up and it keeps me from sleeping.  I'm going to call someone today to see if we can figure out what is going on.  Other than that, I feel good.  I'm eating good and can do most anything.  I attempted to cut my grass Friday and had to get Tammy to rescue me about 3/4 of the way through.  I'm still a little weak but improving dailey.  The only problem now is the sleep thing and the heart beat of 100+ per min. Who knows.
The last hawk I saw was getting pounded by a crow.  It was last Friday morning when I went out with my dog.  They flew away with the crow attacking the hawk over and over.  I wonder what that could have meant.  Anyway, God bless you and your house.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

May 5, 2011

I had a breathing test today at UK hospital.  It was given to determine if I have lost any breathing capacity and to see how much my lungs are converting the oxygen I take in to usable oxygen in my blood.  Everything came out great. the lady who gave the test said I was "perfect".(I think she just meant on the breathing thing).
That made me feel a lot better.  I even came home and attempted to cut my own grass.  I got most of it cut before I had to get Tammy to rescue me.  I just couldn't quite make it.  It will take more time.
The hawk is soaring high today and the tumor......well, you know how tricky tumors are, but it is shrinking and there ain't nothin' it can do about it.

Monday, May 2, 2011

May 2, 2011

Pet scan shows that cancer is much smaller than before in the left lung.  The spot in my wind pipe is smaller but still showing up and two lymph nodes show about the same as last time.  The oncologist says we are making real progress and the radiologist says we are making progress.  They want to wait another month before making a decision on future treatments.  All in all it is good news for two reasons.  1. I get 5 more weeks of a break and, they tell me, it wll most likly shrink more over the next few weeks.  I am not jumping up and down with the news but I am cautiously optimistic. It sounds like I have a good chance of fighting this thing. 
God bless you and your house.